F*CK THE CULTURE

I feel a battle internally sometimes, everyone would be lying to say they never have. To live in the world we do and not question our truths would actually be insane. It is very sad to me though, that this is the norm. It makes sense to me on why we do this but at the same time, I cannot believe we do. When I hear people speak about how they are battling themselves internally I can resonate at times. But I also think to myself,

Battling yourself?

Why would any living thing, living being battle themself? Seriously why do we not question this more?

Well I have been, I have been questioning this like crazy recently. And I have came to my own conclusion. It is not myself I am battling, it literally is the culture. The culture I was raised in that tells me what to do and how to do it.

A culture that says,

“Do it this way and not this way, be perfect.”

And then turns around and says this,

“Ok now go be creative because creativity is awesome and you do not need to be perfect, we all make mistakes!”

Sweet, perfect! No, this has to be the most contradicting and manipulative thing I have ever heard of. And it is literally HOW we are raised in this society. It is literally what we are built upon. This culture is insecure and the evil it is rooted in is too.

Never have I been a person who will feed culture, I will never spend time trying to fix it. Instead, I do all I can to step out of it, to break it into pieces. I am in a battle with culture. I cannot understand why we are all so afraid to step out of something we know that makes no sense. How we find freedom in the total opposite of what we live in?

Culture plays games, the heart does not. Every time we take steps further and FURTHER from the mold bad thoughts fill our brains. These thoughts tell us we are wrong, there is something wrong with us.

I am wrong, I am dumb, I cannot do this, and I cannot do that. I do one thing that does not fit the “norm” and culture yells at me. But at the same time it says,

“You do not need to be perfect, come back!”

It is manipulative. It is sickening. And we all try to impress it. The most toxic relationship I have in my life is literally with our culture. I try and break out and it does everything it can to pull me back in. It tells me I’m wrong but yet I am ok, I can be forgiven.

So me doing something different then what this lame culture tells me to is….

Wrong?

I appreciate the forgiveness but I do not need it.

I laugh in the face of evil. This culture and what it tells me to do does not fear me. The insecurity it is built upon feels the fear as I type this out. My heart is rooted in good. My heart is me. I am not in a battle with myself, I just need to listen to myself. And that is the optimism.

Optimism is my strength in God, the focus to step out of the culture.

And in today’s world, it is hard to listen to the good. Because the world will try and tell us the way to go.

I have caught myself BEGGING for culture’s acceptance. Let me prove to you guys I am normal! Ummmmm, ew.

I have caught myself BEGGING culture for answers. Everyone, everyone what do I do next? What is right and what is wrong? Ummmmm, EW!

I deserve to feel sad? I deserve to feel pain? I deserve to feel wrong, no culture deserves to FUCK right off. It must be boring trying to fit a mold to impress others who just follow the culture too. I would much rather be accepted by those who don’t.

Screw the way it goes. I am supposed to just follow something built upon rules, something so contradicting? A culture built to not fit the needs of humans who need unconditional love, free play, and be allowed to just exist? We are raised to perfection, to fit it. Sure culture can tell us over and over we don’t need to be perfect, but it sure always try’s to guide us to be.

Told what to do and what not to do. That is how it goes here in this culture. Stemmed from and created upon beliefs and rules, not freedom to discover. Children are cognitively programmed before they are allowed to imagine.

And we wonder why we all live in confusion.

It is not that we are all traumatized or broken. Sure life is not easy, but majority of us were raised in culture where the needs of our heart cannot be met.

Because everyone today LIVES in culture. They THRIVE in it. And the worst part is everyone swears they have escaped it when they are so stuck in it.